by Parachute

I’ve been beaten down,
I’ve been kicked around,
But she takes it all for me.
And I lost my faith,
In my darkest days,
But she makes me want to believe.

They call her love, love, love, love, love.
They call her love, love, love, love, love.
She’s all I need.

Well I had my ways,
They were all in vain,
And she waited patiently.
It was all the same,
All my pride and shame,
And she put me on my feet.

They call her love, love, love, love, love.
They call her love, love, love, love, love.
They call her love, love, love, love, love.
She is love, and she is all I need.

And when that world slows down, dear,
And when those stars burn out, here,
Oh she’ll be here.
Yes she’ll be here.

They call her love, love, love, love, love.
They call her love, love, love, love, love.
They call her love, love, love, love, love.
They call her love, love, love, love, love.
She is love, and she is all I need.
She is love, and she is all I need.
She is love, and she is all I need.

She’s all I need.

by Missy Higgins

I don’t know what I’ve done
Or if I like what I’ve begun
But something told me to run
And honey you know me, it’s all or none
There were sounds in my head
Little voices whispering
That I should go and this should end
Oh and I found my self listening

Cause I don’t know who I am, who I am without you
All I know is that I should
And I don’t know if I could stand another hand upon you
All I know is that I should
Cause she will love you more than I could
She who dares to stand where I stood

See, I thought love was black and white
That it was wrong or it was right
But you ain’t leaving without a fight
And I think I am just as torn inside

Cause I don’t know who I am, who I am without you
All I know is that I should
And I don’t know if I could stand another hand upon you
All I know is that I should
Cause she will love you more than I could
She who dares to stand where I stood

And I won’t be far from where you are if ever you should call
You meant more to me then any one I’ve ever loved at all
But you taught me how to trust myself
And so I say to you, this is what I have to do.

Cause I don’t know who I am, who I am without you
All I know is that I should
And I don’t know if I could stand another hand upon you
All I know is that I should
Cause she will love you more than I could
She who dares to stand where I stood
She who dares to stand where I stood.

Show Me What I’m Looking For
by Carolina Liar

Wait, I’m wrong
Should have done better than this
Please, I’ll be strong
I’m finding it hard to resist
So show me what I’m looking for

CHORUS

Save me, I’m lost
Oh lord, I’ve been waiting for you
I’ll pay any cost
Save me from being confused
Show me what I’m looking for
Show me what I’m looking for…oh lord

Don’t let go
I’ve wanted this far too long
Mistakes become regrets
I’ve learned to love abuse
Please show me what I’m looking for

CHORUS

Save me, I’m lost
Oh lord, I’ve been waiting for you
I’ll pay any cost
Save me from being confused
Show me what I’m looking for
Show me what I’m looking for…oh lord

Show me what I’m looking for
Show me what I’m looking for
Show me what I’m looking for

CHORUS

Save me, I’m lost
Oh lord, I’ve been waiting for you
I’ll pay any cost
Just save me from being confused
Wait, I’m wrong
I can’t do better than this
I’ll pay any cost
Save me from being confused
Show me what I’m looking for
Show me what I’m looking for
Show me what I’m looking for
Show me what I’m looking for…oh lord

Use Somebody
by Kings of Leon

I’ve been roaming around always lookin down at all I see.
Painted faces fill the places I can’t reach.
You know that I could use somebody
You know that I could use somebody
Someone like you
And all you know and how you speak
Countless lovers undercover of the street
You know that I could use somebody
You know that I could use somebody
Someone like you
Off in the night while you live it up I’m off to sleep
Waging wars to shake the poet and the beat
I hope it’s gonna make you notice
I hope it’s gonna make you notice
Someone like me
Someone like me
Someone like me
Somebody
(Go and let it out)
Someone like you
Somebody
Someone like you
Somebody
Someone like you
Somebody
I’ve been roaming around always lookin down at all I see

I’m normally a pretty level person emotionally on a day-to-day basis (I think and hope). I try to be upbeat and smiling. Lately, not so much. Things have been happening in my personal life to irk me to no end. And they just keep coming…nit…pick…nit…pick…a little here, a little there. They are mostly trivial and mundane, but they just keep happening and adding up.

There are some aspects of my life that are still as great and wonderful as ever – work is steady, challenging and rewarding. I work with the best group of people. But inside, something is not quite right.

I always miss my friends and family back home. Always. I miss them more at times like this..when I’m struggling internally with finances, boy problems or who I am. I miss my “security blanket” that is my Alabama girls. (that was so grammatically incorrect on so many levels, I’m sure)

I don’t understand guys. That much is known. I wish I did. I’ve had enough experience…you’d think I would know a thing or two. But I don’t. Or either I’m just not meant to be with someone for the rest of my life. I’m sure I am – I’m an eternal romantic and an optimist. I think everyone has and deserves someone (if they want it). I do. I want it. Why can’t I get it right? Or am I just thinking too much again and need to leave things be? I don’t know…this time it seems the “unsettled” feeling is sticking. Unfortunately.

I’m sure I’m just in a funk right now and all will be well if quit picking at the scab. This should be a very happy day and weekend for me. I’m throwing a party for a friend and we’re celebrating basically all weekend. But I’m having a hard time getting and being happy when I’m so sad on the inside. It hurts my heart. The blatant disregard for my feelings. I probably deserve it – I haven’t been a peach to be with lately. But, I try to live by the motto that I give what I get. Maybe it’s deeper than that. But I feel justified. And sad. And lonely.

First Person (shortest song in history – 40 seconds)
by Jenny Owen Youngs

What’s the worst thing
That could happen
We find out that we really don’t quite fit
But on the flip side
We could be just right
And sure, there’s the chance that we’ll both end up
Broken and split
But that’s my kind of risk

I’m not trying to make you think this is some kind of great big deal
I just know exactly how you feel

(looking at my last past from 4 days ago…my, that was a fast crash on my part)