Today’s 31 Days to a Better Blog challenge was to revamp the ‘About’ page of our blog. I am going to do that, but not today.
I have been struggling internally with a post for some time now, going back and forth on should I or shouldn’t I. During our #bloglikecrazy challenge in November, one of the tasks was to write a risky post. At the time I couldn’t think of anything that important to me that wasn’t already out there – I’m a pretty open person. Well, I finally figured it out. While I did write about my body issues that day, I didn’t divulge my actual weight. I know as soon as my dad reads this he’s going to call me up and talk to me 1) about my weight and b) putting it out there. He loves me to pieces but has no idea. I’m doing this for myself. If I’m seriously going to work on my weight loss goal, there has to be accountability to myself and to my readers, many of who are dear friends that help and coach me. There are about 3 people on the planet who know my weight and my doctor is one of them. Daniel is another. I’ve realized, the more I blog and put myself out there and the more I talk with other Janes about their insecurities, that it’s not nearly as big a deal as it is in my head. I actually told a friend my weight recently – she had just caught me coming from Iron Tribe and I told her one of my goals was to lose 100 pounds this year – and she balked at me both when she heard I wanted to lose 100 pounds and then at my current weight. She had no idea I weighed that much and was kind enough to tell me I carry it well. I appreciate those words more than she knows, but I still need to lose it for my health. So, in the footsteps of some incredibly inspiring friends before me – Jen West, Stephen Vinson, Jennifer Dome – I’m pledging to weigh in weekly on Wednesdays starting this week. Just to kick things off and give everyone a chance to shoot milk out of their nose, I currently weigh 287.5 lbs. There you have it, folks. I’ve lost my mind. And dad, I love you more than anything, but please don’t call me about this post. It was hard enough to write it…I don’t want to talk about it. lol! I love you.
Love yourself.
Find peace inside.
Share happiness.
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You go girl! You are beautiful!
Thank you TK. So are you, my friend. 🙂
I weight 177 and I’m 5’2″ – there, now you aren’t all alone. 🙂
I heart you. More than you know. 🙂
Ok girl, I’ll give you mine. I weigh 194 and am 5’1. I just lost 26 pounds. There, it’s out there. I need to lose another 80.
Laura, you are ROCKING it! I’ve been keeping up with your journey on FB and am so proud (and inspired) by you. Keep up the GREAT work! 🙂
I completely understand how hard it is to write this! I felt, and still feel, the same way, too. I think people are always surprised at another person’s weight because we just don’t judge weight on other people correctly. Therefore, maybe we shouldn’t judge at all! I’ve become a little numb to announcing how much I weigh on my blog, but only because other people out there are doing it, too, and so I know I’m not alone. Your weight-loss goals are so admirable and I’m right there with ya! I think once you admit your weight publicly, it almost makes you more resilient because you OWN it. So own it, and own your goals, too!! Much love!!
Thank you!!!!! This comment rocked my socks in a huge way. I *know* you get it and I love having you as a friend who has been there. I am sure I will look to you for support and guidance during this journey. And I hope you know I am here for you every step of yours. We can and WILL do this and we can count on each other. You are so fearless. Thank you for the courage.
I am so proud of you! I know this was a hard post to write, but you have friends that love you to pieces and will be with you every step of the way to help you achieve your goal!
Thank you, Coach! 😉 I know I can call you any time. Love you!
I have never commented on your blog. In fact, I have not commented on many blogs at all (I don’t have one myself–yet). But I wanted to acknowledge how brave you are for writing this post about your weight. I am struggling with my own weight and have recently begun taking steps to get healthier. So many bad feelings and self-worth issues are tied up with our bodies. It takes true courage to put it out there for all to see and I commend you for your candor. Maybe someday I’ll be that brave myself, inspired by you!
Nancy, thank you for commenting on my blog and the very kind words. I’m not sure if you realize how much they mean coming from you as I am a huge. You were a great first See Jane Event for me and inspired me to “just do it” as they say. I hadn’t even really started blogging before I went to that. So thank you. I wouldn’t be here writing this without your words, knowledge, and support. 🙂
Well, it seems we have a mutual fan club going on here! I was thinking how accomplished your blog is . I didn’t know it was fairly new. So glad something I said that evening clicked with you. I’m enjoying getting to know the SJW folks.
I just think you are awesome. Your candor impresses and inspires me.
Phyllis Neill
Phyllis, I look up to you and have for quite some time. Thank you for your kind words – they mean so much. I look forward to sharing this with you and your feedback. 🙂
You know, when you posted your “I Voted” photo on Facebook in November…I had a ping of jealousy. I thought, “Why can’t I have gorgeous blond hair, amazing skin and an inner glow like that???”
My body issues started when I was in elementary school and a classmate named Justin Childers deciding to start calling me ‘chicken legs’ because I was so skinny. You’ll rarely see me in shorts or with bare legs for that reason to this day and that was 30+ years ago.
Sherri, YOU ARE BEAUTIFUL AS YOU ARE but if anything is going to make you feel more beautiful or make you feel healthier, I am 100% behind you. You may have just inspired me to put on some shorts this summer (at least when it’s 100 degrees) too.
You are so sweet, Emily. Shoot, I have those pings re: you all the time. lol. You are beautiful – I love your style, your smile, your glasses, and your EVERYTHING! I can’t wait to see your beautiful legs this summer! Promise me? 🙂
You ROCK! Behind you all the way!
Thank you so much, Sheree!!! 🙂 Hugs!
263.2 lbs, 44.5″ waist.
We all have the power to make the change. We just have to not be afraid of owning that power. At least for me, I am accepting that as truth.
I am so proud of you. Thank you for sharing that. You are beautiful! 🙂
You are so awesome. You’ve encouraged me to be even more open about my own body image/beauty issues. And please know I am 100% behind you as you go after your fitness goals!
Sherri, you truly are an inspiration! I have been struggling with this myself lately and it can be so discouraging at times. I have seen you post updates where you are out there being active, Iron Tribe & Color Run etc… and I wish I was there doing it too. You are an amazing and beautiful woman and the only person you need to do this for is you. You definitely GOT THIS!!
Thank you, sweet friend. You don’t know how much it means. I am being active but, honestly, it takes everything in my body. I am so tired and sore from the workouts. But I WILL LIVE. lol. Whenever you come down next or I come up there, would love to go walking around Railroad Park or something. Or we can do our very own exclusive Dance Walk. Deal? You are beautiful too – inside and out. And I am totally inspired by you. Thank you for that!
Sounds like a deal to me! I have driven by Railroad Park a few times but I haven’t had the chance to visit. I would love to go walking with you.
Honestly, I think it is so awesome how social you are…. I wish I was half as much as you are. I have always been the type to start off quiet and shy when I first meet people but then I can’t keep my mouth shut after I get to know you lol. It warms my heart to think I inspire you, thank you!
You most certainly do inspire me and you’re more outgoing than you give yourself credit for! You have an awesome personality and attitude! I can’t wait for you to come back and we can get our exercise on. 🙂
Sherri, I think this is the bravest thing I’ve ever seen on the Internet! And I am rooting for you! I think you are beautiful as you are … but if you want to lose weight, I will support you 100%. I will be following your journey!
Kat – You are too kind. I assure you it’s not the bravest thing, but I would be lying if I didn’t say I was pretty shaken posting it. lol! And most definitely crazy (but in a good way, like you. lol). Thank you so much for the kind words. I look forward to sharing the journey with you. And I hope to see you very soon. You are one of my favorite people! (did you know that? I bet not b/c I never told you..but you are. 😉 )