Reinvention

I’m slowly coming to the realization that I want more. Not material things, not friends, not money….more out of life, more enjoyable moments, and more meaningful relationships. I want to do more, be more, and provide more for others. This is something that has been brewing for a while in my mind and soul; it just recently came to light for me consciously. I am getting those “wild hairs”, but they are very good hairs and are bringing clarity and positivity to my life. While I can’t control those around me and their chaos, I can control mine and transform it into something positive. Those are my keywords are of late: reinvention, transformation, positivity, meaningful.

I saw a great article on reinvention yesterday during lunch: 5 Steps to Reinvent Yourself.

It caught my eye for a number of reasons. There are a lot of things going on in my life right now. Not all that I can write about publicly on here, but important nonetheless. I’m working on reinventing myself – physically, spiritually, mentally and professionally.

First up is fitness (flashback to Fergie, “My body stay vicious. I be up in the gym just working on my fitness.” lol) and that is going well. I recently finished an 8 week Boot Camp with Graham from G57 Training and Fitness.  It definitely kicked my butt and also lit a fire in me to keep going. I did the Race for the Cure back in October (my first 5K) and it was awesome. I walked it, but I still did it. I trained for a few months beforehand to build up my endurance since I wasn’t doing ANY exercising before that. After that, I worked on some more small races/walks. I’m still “walking”, but that’s mostly because my knees aren’t great and everything jiggles too much for my liking (my badonkadonk). I walk fast, so I’m fine with that for now. I started doing personal training with Graham this week to keep the momentum going. He’s kicking my butt and it’s great. I’m tracking food and calories on Livestrong for him to review, meeting twice a week to work out, and drinking more water than I ever have in my life. I’m excited and ready.

I’ve also subscribed to the Tiny Buddha daily emails which go hand in hand with my spiritual journey. There was another great article today that complemented yesterday’s nicely: 3 Questions Worth Asking to Find the Right Answer for You. They both spoke to me on many levels and I’m taking them to heart. I am going to formulate some concrete ideas, yard sticks and long term goals for myself using these articles and the tools and questions they contain.

I’m currently working on Step 1 of the 5 Steps above. This will give way to discovering more about myself, how to live more authentically, and decide what direction I want my reinvention to take. I have so many ideas swirling in my head…so many things I am passionate about and want to explore. I want to embrace this life and start doing the things I love, not just the things I know and are comfortable with.

Why not go out on a limb? After all, isn’t that where the fruit is?

Love yourself.
Find peace inside.
Share happiness.

Somebody That I Used To Know

by Gotye (feat. Kimbra)

[Gotye:]
Now and then I think of when we were together
Like when you said you felt so happy you could die
Told myself that you were right for me
But felt so lonely in your company
But that was love and it’s an ache I still remember

You can get addicted to a certain kind of sadness
Like resignation to the end, always the end
So when we found that we could not make sense
Well you said that we would still be friends
But I’ll admit that I was glad it was over

But you didn’t have to cut me off
Make out like it never happened and that we were nothing
And I don’t even need your love
But you treat me like a stranger and that feels so rough
No you didn’t have to stoop so low
Have your friends collect your records and then change your number
I guess that I don’t need that though
Now you’re just somebody that I used to know

Now you’re just somebody that I used to know
Now you’re just somebody that I used to know

[Kimbra:]
Now and then I think of all the times you screwed me over
But had me believing it was always something that I’d done
But I don’t wanna live that way
Reading into every word you say
You said that you could let it go
And I wouldn’t catch you hung up on somebody that you used to know

[Gotye:]
But you didn’t have to cut me off
Make out like it never happened and that we were nothing
And I don’t even need your love
But you treat me like a stranger and that feels so rough
And you didn’t have to stoop so low
Have your friends collect your records and then change your number
I guess that I don’t need that though
Now you’re just somebody that I used to know

[x2]
Somebody
(I used to know)
Somebody
(Now you’re just somebody that I used to know)

(I used to know)
(That I used to know)
(I used to know)
Somebody

arms

I can’t stop listening or thinking about the words…

“Arms”
by Christina Perri

I never thought that you would be the one to hold my heart
But you came around and you knocked me off the ground from the start

You put your arms around me
And I believe that it’s easier for you to let me go
You put your arms around me and I’m home

How many times will you let me change my mind and turn around?
I can’t decide if I’ll let you save my life or if I’ll drown

I hope that you see right through my walls
I hope that you catch me ’cause I’m already falling
I’ll never let a love get so close
You put your arms around me and I’m home

The world is coming down on me and I can’t find a reason to be loved
I never wanna leave you but I can’t make you bleed if I’m alone

You put your arms around me
And I believe that it’s easier for you to let me go…

I hope that you see right through my walls
I hope that you catch me, ’cause I’m already falling
I’ll never let a love get so close
You put your arms around me and I’m home

I tried my best to never let you in to see the truth
And I’ve never opened up
I’ve never truly loved ’til you put your arms around me
And I believe that it’s easier for you to let me go

I hope that you see right through my walls
I hope that you catch me, ’cause I’m already falling
I’ll never let a love get so close
You put your arms around me and I’m home

You put your arms around me and I’m home

This Is How I’m Feeling Today

Hey Man Nice Shot
by Filter

I wish I would’ve met you;
now it’s a little late.
What you could’ve taught me,
I could’ve saved some face.
They think that your early ending was all wrong;
for the most part they’re right,
but look how they all got strung.

That’s why I say, “Hey man, nice shot.”
“What a good shot, man.”
That’s why I say, “Hey man, nice shot.”
“What a good shot, man.”

A man, has gun –
Hey man, have fun.
Nice shot!

Now that the smokes gone,
and the air is all clear:
those who were right there
had a new kind of fear.
You’d fight and you were right –
but, they were just too strong.
They’d stick it in your face
and let you smell what they consider wrong.

That’s why I say “Hey man, nice shot.”
“…a good shot, man.”
That’s why I say “Hey man, nice shot.”
“…what a good shot, man.”

A man, has gun –
Hey man, have fun.
A man, has gun –
Hey man, have fun.
Oh, nice shot man!
Oh, nice shot man!

Oh, I wish I would’ve met you.
I wish I would’ve met you, oh.
I wish I would’ve met you, oh.
I wish I would’ve met you,
I’d say, “Nice shot.”