I have certain CDs that I always come back to. Every few years, I circle back around or any time I hear them out in public, they bring me back. There are many in the list, but Tori Amos’ “Little Earthquakes” just came on.

A lot has happened since I posted last. I haven’t looked over what I read, but I starting thinking about moving back home to Alabama a little over a year ago (Feb) and I am here. I moved at the end of November, started a new job at the beginning of December and have been running like mad ever since. I have a beautiful townhouse in a great part of town close to work, I have my dog, and I have a great job with friends and family not too far away. The work situation was hairy at first because it changed drastically right before I came on board, but I’ve managed and am now able to breathe. It’s not easy, but I don’t think any job ever is once we get older.

While I was ecstatic to come home to family and friends, I did have to leave some very special people back in VA. It’s been hard and there are times I’ve second guessed my decision, but I am hopeful things will work themselves out and what is meant to be will be.

I started Weight Watchers a week and a half ago and have lost 5 lbs so far. I am excited and happy that I am working toward getting healthy. Now if I could just get the gumption or desire to exercise more. It just ain’t happening…

That’s where I am.

September
by Daughtry

How the time passed away? All the trouble that we gave
And all those days we spent out by the lake
Has it all gone to waste? All the promises we made
One by one they vanish just the same

Of all the things I still remember
Summer’s never looked the same
The years go by and time just seems to fly by
But the memories remain

In the middle of September we’d still play out in the rain
Nothing to lose but everything to gain
Reflecting now on how things could’ve been
It was worth it in the end

Now it all seems so clear, there’s nothing left to fear
So we made our way by finding what was real
Now the days are so long that summer’s moving on
We reach for something that’s already gone

Of all the things I still remember
Summer’s never looked the same
The years go by and time just seems to fly by
But the memories remain

In the middle of September we’d still play out in the rain
Nothing to lose but everything to gain
Reflecting now on how things could’ve been
It was worth it in the end

We knew we had to leave this town
But we never knew when and we never knew how
We would end up here the way we are
Yeah we knew we had to leave this town
But we never knew when and we never knew how

Of all the things I still remember
Summer’s never looked the same
The years go by and time just seems to fly by
But the memories remain

In the middle of September we’d still play out in the rain
Nothing to lose but everything to gain
Reflecting now on how things could’ve been
It was worth it in the end

You learn something new everyday. This is a Train song. One of my favorites. I just did a lyrics search on it to put them on here and – KABOW – it’s actually a song by a band called Sugar. Who knew?? I certainly didn’t. Train re-made it for their 2006 album. It was originally released in 1992 by Sugar. Nifty! I’m going to see Train tonight in concert. WOO HOO!

If I Can’t Change Your Mind
by Train

Tears fill up my eyes
I’m washed away with sorrow
And somewhere in my mind
I know there’s no tomorrow
I see you’re leaving soon
I guess you’ve had your fill
But if I can’t change your mind
Then no one will

And all throughout the years
I’ve never strayed from you my dear
But you suspect I’m somewhere else
You’re feeling sorry for yourself
Leaving with a broken heart
I love you even still
But if I can’t change your mind
Then no one will

Even though my heart keeps breaking
Don’t you know that I’ll be waiting
Here for you
Then when you return
When will you return
I hope you see I’m dedicated
Look how long that I have waited
If you come back then you will find
A different person
If you change your mind

How can I explain away
Something that I haven’t done
And if you can’t trust me now
You’ll never trust in anyone
With all the crazy doubts you’ve got
I love you even still
But if I can’t change your mind
Then no one will

Someday you’ll see I’ve been true
I’ll stay that way until
But if I can’t change your mind
Then no one will
Wish I could change your mind

Well, it’s finally getting cooler, but you get my drift. It has been a HOT summer! The hottest in years, I think.

A lot has happened since May when I last posted. I am so horrible at this. lol. We had our move at work…everything went great. Now the dust has settled and it’s time to focus on my next big project: getting home! I am ready. I love my job here and my man, but I am very, very ready to get back to my friends and family. I miss them so much and am over seeing them once or twice a year. So, that’s next on the agenda. I am starting the job search, starting the packing and wondering what the future holds. But I’m still living in the now. The man and I are still doing more and more, because we know our time together is drawing to a close. I’m still working my butt off, but it’s ok. I’ll keep you posted, but that’s all that’s going on for me right now. That’s enough. lol!

That title is not referring to my blog…rather, my mind has left. (Although you would think it’s referring to my blog since I haven’t been on in like a year.)

I’m still here. I’m still working. I’m still going out with the same guy. I’m still the same…for the most part. My mind and my heart have left the state though. I’ve been contemplating for a while now moving back home to Alabama…to be closer to my friends and my family there. I have been seriously thinking about it since probably March. I know I can’t do anything right now because my lease isn’t up until December. Plus, we’re moving to a new HQ facility at work in July and I’m in charge of the IT portion of it, plus getting a new phone system purchased, configured and installed. I would never leave before all that is done. But, I know I can seriously start looking after the move and that is pretty much all that’s keeping me going these days. My heart has already left. I feel like a robot lately, just going through the motions of work and life…while my real life is waiting to begin. I know that’s not true…this is it, it is now and I should live it and enjoy every moment. But inside I just feel like I’m passing time until I get to the next part. Soooo not realistic, but true. And I am living life now..I’m having a blast with friends and my man….doing more and more all the time because I know it may not last past this year. I’ve decided to make the summer the best I can, even though I’ll be working most of it with the move.

My body is here, by my mind is not. Elvis has left the building.